It’s the end of the year. Again.
I type that year after year after year… and this year, it seemed like it was 5 minutes ago.
I lay low at the end of the year. Unlplug. Set the camera down. Leave the computer off. I try calm on for a few days. And it feels good sometimes. Sometimes calm brings emotion. Sometimes it’s easier to stay busy, and I change out of calm and into chaos all over again, because it feels normal.
Right now… right in this moment… it’s time…. for calm. Quiet contentment. In these last few days….
To Reflect
To Reenergize
To Rejuvenate
To Reorganize
To Reclaim my sanity.
2016 was so much of everything. So much. It was a whirlwind that I swirled in and the wind that twisted me was the mountain air. How I have grown to love the mountain air, in ways I never expected. I grew in so many ways….in my heart, in my mind, in my soul, in my business, in my home. I learned lesson after lesson. Struggled. Triumphed. Laughed until I snorted. Cried until I was crumpled and thought I couldn’t cry anymore, until I cried again. And I raise a glass to all of that. (Gin of course) I have nothing but gratitude for it all. Because, despite the pretty pictures…… we all know life is life. And not every day is a pretty picture. And that’s OK. I am fully aware that shit happens. And sometimes it happens big time. I’m not naive enough to think every day is perfect. I also know that there is so much out there that makes the world amazing. Makes my life amazing. And worth it. Makes those few minutes a day or hours a day worth it. When I look back at the year, that’s what I choose to see. The amazing. The beauty. The beauty even in its most difficult form. That’s what I will always choose to see. And maybe that seems silly.… but my heart won’t function any other way. It never has. I hope it never will.
I look forward to growth in the new year. In every aspect. (Except the waistline)
I know there is a 100% chance I will face new challenges….and pray that I can face the feat. Rise up.
I look forward to the challenge and then the celebration despite it.
I know that I will face loss.
I know that I will gain love.
I know I will continue to find myself.
I know I will continue to write my narrative, my story..… the good, the bad, the ugly and the beautiful.
I know I will continue to share.
So join me. Friends. Family. People I love.
Cheers to whatever 2016 taught you. And cheers to everything 2017 will bring.
And now…
The favorites. The epics. The laughs. The tears. The love.
The pictures…..
